シの帰り道

October 6, 2016.

My previously silent phone suddenly bursted with messages once it's connected to internet.
The first message I read was from a classmate of middle school days.

"I'm sorry for your loss."

Ah, so this is what it means to have the Earth crumbles beneath you feet, I thought. So this is what it means to have the world stop spinning on its axis.
 
I chose to open the message from my sister next. She simply asked if I could call her right away.
But I had class in two minutes, there's not enough time, there's not enough process in my brain to talk.
I ended up taking the 90-minutes class and barely listened to the lecture.

After class ended I hastily slipped out and found a corner before dialing my sister's LINE account. She treaded the topic carefully. But I had known. I had known what she was going to say.

My father is gone.

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紅一葉

舞い散る朝に

永久祈り   ........................................... (1)

囁いた

温かい手を

さようなら   ........................................... (2)

濡れ瞳

埋もれられ愛

キラメクよ ............................................. (3)

経たぬトキ

シの帰り道

先発し ..................................................(4)

古い本

幾千語り

なくしちゃった .......................................(5)

くすのきく

遠い呼び声

ゆらゆらり .............................................(6)

悲しみも

喜びと舞う

美しさ ................................................. (7)